Ash Wednesday's service was extraordinary. My faith was not just believed during worship but felt. Past Ash Wednesdays have sometimes been primarily rituals to participate in for me.
Tonight's service was an encounter and I wasn't in person for the service but participated by Zoom. Creator's shared sanctuary became a sacred space where our hearts beat in unison with the rhythm of the felt divine presence.
As usual, this worship was recorded. For many the readings, Pastor Emillie's reflection, and the imposition of ashes may have been routine. What I felt, however, was orchestrated by the day's events which evoked experiences that have occurred over the past few months.
My needing to engage with mortality differently was made more real last year in October when my wife's younger sister died from cancer. Attending her funeral cemetery arrangements were arranged, including where my wife and I will be buried.
One of my congregational compatriots, Shirley, well beloved by the congregation and choir, passed at the same time. Another former Creator member, Scott, who was unpretentious and radiant friend; passed close to the same time. Aspects of life's impermanence and the finality of death struck our congregational heart.
And a few weeks back I read a poetry book by sister's husband, Bill Davies, called Oldmanhood. The title alone made me contemplate slipping, in life and health, from manhood into oldmanhood. I recognize I now reside in a neighborhood where life, health, annuity and continued retirement decisions all need to be made more urgently. Also I received a package on Wednesday morning from a friend who wrote about a road trip where he was taking his late wife's urn along back with him. Ash Wednesday's overwhelming and humbling truths made real.
This is also a season for the ongoing disagreements over truth and the accusation the recent administration has made against Lutherans (among others). This made me think of Gimme Some Truth that John Lennon sang in 1970 "I've had enough of reading things by neurotic, psychotic pig headed politicians. All I want is the truth, just gimme some truth" Now I wonder if I can handle all the inconvenient truths of this new era seen from new perspectives.
For over a month our Creator Wednesday Bible Night Conversations has anticipated the Sunday Narrative lectionary readings. The Gospel reading was the Parable of the Good Samaritan. Reading this on Ash Wednesday changed the framing context of the parable. Thinking that Jesus has turned his face to Jerusalem and chooses to start with "A man was going down
from Jerusalem to Jericho and fell into the hands of robbers, who
stripped him, beat him, and took off, leaving him half dead."
This changed who this parable was about for me. The man who fell into the hands of robbers is the Christ figure. As we discussed this, one participant expressed her desire for a satisfying ending to the Samaritan parable. Where the ultimate fate of the man who was helped is given. Certainly one ending to Christ's story is not satisfying either.
Anyway, because of the timings of both the Bible Night Conversation and the service, I chose to attend via Zoom. Pastor Emillie's reflection began with the reminder that we all will die. Death connects us all in this way, yet it is so hard in this particular season to recognize that connection.
"Who are our neighbors?" Pastor Emille asked. Sometimes our neighbors are immigrants who don't look like us that are being pulled out of our country. Sometimes our neighbors are the ones taking those immigrants and labeling them criminals. Sometimes they are those sitting next to us in church and sometimes they are the ones who are on the street, hungry and homeless. Through all of it death is the great connector. When denying that basic fact and grabbing power to make ourselves greater, we have scripture to remind us that finally we are dust and to dust we shall return
The imposition of ashes in the service nodded to both past tradition and innovation reaching for more meaning. Those gathered received the familiar ash cross on their foreheads but the cross was made by someone else in the congregation rather than the pastor alone. The moment was immersive, participatory, and deeply personal for me, even over zoom. Matt's music didn’t just fill the room—it moved through me, The song, written by his friend, captured the moment perfectly.
Creator's congregation often embrace the full spectrum of human experience—joy and sorrow, doubt and conviction, reverence and celebration. It is a community where all are welcome, where questions are honored, and where the sacred is encountered in both the ecstatic and the everyday.
Here, faith is not just something to be understood—it is something that is lived.